Reaching out and

finding small trails of light. A little to long wondering where there wasn't any.

taking little leaps and small steps to correct my mis-footings. waking up and looking at a mirror each day helps. how strange 2 years can go by and you dont notice how far off the path you've been.

going down deep and realizing that it can all change in a few seconds.

now. now. now. now. now

Self correctional programs have re-ignited. 1....2.....3......and launch!

Into stratosphere and higher levels of energy. Warmer vibrations, and settling in.

Air-roots and focus. Spinning color wheels and moon songs. Searching for what it is...

Knowing it is in full effect now.

Maybe its to late to save some things- but others are just beginning.

Oh my Oh my Oh my

Learning lots of lessons. Hurtling through space at a very fast rate. How lucky I am to even be here. Every moment is a miracle. And this is something that I have seemingly forgot.


I am learning something about SURRENDER right now. What comes will come. And there are other forces that will do there will. You can only surrender.
When harsh winds blow trees, they bend with the wind, not against it. Things that are rigid are blown down, and collapse.

There is magic in my finger tips and of that I am aware. I can influence my surroundings and the world in very real ways. So where is the balance between SURRENDER and ACTION?
How much to I push, and how much do I pull? That's the delicate balance.
I've been pushing to much recently, and that's why I am so tired.


Through all of this though. I am learning. Learning to see the little glimmers of light- everywhere.

But by god do i hope that this Quantum Leap happens soon!

RE:entering Slowly

Thoughts have Wings

I hold it true, that thoughts are things;
They're endowed with bodies and breath and wings;
And that we send them forth to fill
The world with good results, or ill.
That which we call our secret thought
Speeds forth to earth's remotest spot,
leaving its blessings or its woes
Like tracks behind it as it goes.
We build our future thought by thought,
for good or ill, yet know it not.
Yet, so the universe was wrought.
Thought is another name for fate;
Choose, then, thy destiny and wait,
For love brings love and hate brings hate.

-Henry Van Dyke

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Eyes Wide Shut

Humbling Experiences. I am not used to feeling like a fool, or ashamed, or like i have been blind. How did I find myself in this loop? When did I start to close my eyes? When did I fall back into the robot?

There is much work to do.

"When you are stuck in a hole, what do you do?"
"Stop Digging"



Why is it our natural reaction to continue to work harder on our actions that do not produce results? Why is the idea that more force will bring results? And not an re-approach of the question?
Because it is hard to step back and it is hard to reevaluate your whole situation when you are in it.

I have been letting myself operate under: Fear
We need: Hope ----> How did I forget this?
We were upside down.



We've landed. Now what?


I must clear all the excess energy.
I must focus on the things I know to be true.
I must retrace the coming into myself and my operation.
I must trust that all will be as it will.

.:.*)(X)()( I have flipped the coin )()(X)()( and i will not forget )()(X)(*.:.

Slow Down. Ground. Remember. Step Forward.

The right things will happen- i dont believe that- but i do like to pretend its true.

Cheers to all of you.
Cheers to new beginnings everyday.
Cheers to Quest- who begins his new journey today.