How else do you do it?

And travelling through....

I am so amazed right now. I feel like I've been shot out of a long tunnel. Or at the very least like someone took off my "jaded POV' sunglasses.
I'm dusting myself off, and looking at the damage. There is nothing that has been broken beyond at least a moderate repair.
Wow. Wow. Wow. Humbling. Motivating. Stunning. The light is so bright now.


I had to go through a lot of shit to get here. I had to learn a lot of lessons. Lessons that I had to learn now, so that I maybe the person I want to be in the future.
I wonder if asking to be a hero, means we get more challenges early on?

I am up for it. This was a hard one. But I havn't backed down yet. No! No!


So much under the surface. I am just really seeing it for the first time.

And I am so happy that I have the chance.



How did I ever think I would get wise and old without fucking up along the way?

Reaching out and

finding small trails of light. A little to long wondering where there wasn't any.

taking little leaps and small steps to correct my mis-footings. waking up and looking at a mirror each day helps. how strange 2 years can go by and you dont notice how far off the path you've been.

going down deep and realizing that it can all change in a few seconds.

now. now. now. now. now

Self correctional programs have re-ignited. 1....2.....3......and launch!

Into stratosphere and higher levels of energy. Warmer vibrations, and settling in.

Air-roots and focus. Spinning color wheels and moon songs. Searching for what it is...

Knowing it is in full effect now.

Maybe its to late to save some things- but others are just beginning.

Oh my Oh my Oh my

Learning lots of lessons. Hurtling through space at a very fast rate. How lucky I am to even be here. Every moment is a miracle. And this is something that I have seemingly forgot.


I am learning something about SURRENDER right now. What comes will come. And there are other forces that will do there will. You can only surrender.
When harsh winds blow trees, they bend with the wind, not against it. Things that are rigid are blown down, and collapse.

There is magic in my finger tips and of that I am aware. I can influence my surroundings and the world in very real ways. So where is the balance between SURRENDER and ACTION?
How much to I push, and how much do I pull? That's the delicate balance.
I've been pushing to much recently, and that's why I am so tired.


Through all of this though. I am learning. Learning to see the little glimmers of light- everywhere.

But by god do i hope that this Quantum Leap happens soon!