Braver Than Before

This is where it all gets heavy,
Planets circumvent the sun
All of this ends in fire or darkness
Depending on how long your orbit lasts.

Standing up and punching out
moving your feet so fast that you're floating
Remember that the stars give their lives
to fight the void

And are re-created in inferior forms.

Why am I so weak- that I must have answers?
I demand a yes or no. The ultimatum.
To immature for ambiguities or maybe or lets see...
I wonder if my folly is my urgency
I wonder if my folly is my passion

For I am young and hopeful
what more do I have?
I believe that the stars maybe rocked from their mantles,
And the earth uprooted from its path.
I acknowledge myself the fool

There is no decision if you sit on the fence post
If you should have done it yesterday,
maybe you should still do it today?

It's okay, it's okay, it's okay, it's okay
to let me down.

You offered me new views of the universe
in silence i declined.
I'm selfish now and want it back.
An odd nature to make things over dramatic,
What a silly little monkey I am.





I mean it.

...Which is whY I Needed a Pep Talk.

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I remember when Gulner wished that we would all feel humble underneath the stars, standing in the deep black ocean at night.
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Things that need to be remembered:
- When you're doing something you don't like- Stop.
- Everything untrue has an opposite which is negative. Everything true has an equally true opposite.
- We were put here to create and to love.
- Everything returns from where it came.

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I slept with Faith, and found a corpse in my arms upon awaking; I drank and danced all night with Doubt, and found her a virgin in the morning.

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this is not for you.

I fell off my Rocking Horse...

Sometimes you arrive at a place and you say,
"wow. this is where I am. who would've thought?"
Somehow or another you got on this train, and I got on that one
and that's why we are the way we are.

Messages are lost in static and memories delete in moments
Things come from nowhere and others
vanish completely before your eyes.
There is no use in trying to decipher any of the signs.

Such troubled conscious and altered view,
this is the lens that I didn't have before.
Magnified, intensified, and always worrisome
these signals tell me things I never knew.

Today feels like....

i should know better